How I Met My Abusive (ex) Boyfriend Funniest Twitch LIVE STREAM 3 months ago   10:41

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Thank you for watching and hearing my story. Check my pinned comment in the comment section below for more information about me/my experience. Click "Show More" for some helpful links.

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“6 Types of Child Abuse” by Psych2Go: https://ai-tube.com/videoai/iExXCZKKA8Z
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illymation
⬇️ *IF YOU HAVE A QUESTION I PROBABLY ANSWERED IT HERE* ⬇️

Hey guys! Thank you for making it through that video and hearing my story on this. Considering this content and the kind of awful people it can attract, I wanna start something good in my comments section with your help! *If you see a comment that’s super kind, helpful, anything awesome, comment on that comment with a heart ❤️ emoji.* That way, youtube will push it to the top. If enough people give love to one another, maybe we can drown out the hate. 😄

I expect there will be a lot of valid questions. A lot of those I can assure you I’ll get to in the next videos. But here are some answers for now.

*Why did you make this video? It’s [insert your opinion here]*

If I have a platform, if I have a voice, if people are watching and listening to me, I want to use this channel to highlight the things I wish I knew to avoid when I was your age. I want to warn others against awful people like the guy in this video. Know the red flags. Listen to your friends and family. It really can happen to anyone.

*“Why wait? Quit cliffhanging! Tell us everything!”*

This is already a 10 minute video that took over a month to do! I’m also in college full time. I reaaaallly wanted to do a tell-all, believe me. There’s just so much to tell, and I am ITCHING to get this done.

*“Why didn’t you go to the police?”*

1. You can’t call the cops on someone being mean to you on the internet.
2. *I did!* (I’ll get into that in the next video) but understand, I, the detective, my lawyer, we all need to be able to prove who sent the messages. The messages themselves aren’t enough. If brought to court, he could argue “oh my sister sent that not me” and... we can’t prove otherwise. And if you don’t believe this, idk what to tell you. I went to the police and this is what they told me.
3. *We tried* proving otherwise by getting his confession, and he denied it all of course. He never thought he did anything wrong in the first place.
4. Even though he coerced me into sending pictures, I could still go to jail for “soliciting” CP. Again, we can’t prove HE coerced me. But we can prove that’s me who sent them. “WAIT THATS NOT FAIR—!” Yup. Even though I was coerced, I was pressured, I was threatened... I did something that can be proven, and he did something that can’t be proven. So going to court could possibly get ME jailed. This is what people mean when they say “the system protects criminals.” 🙃

*”Why didn’t you include the messages where [this this that that whatever]”*

I just don’t have the messages. Here’s the approximate breakdown of our conversation history:
- 80% Skype
- Of that 80%, half was talking out loud (therefore no paper trail)
- Blocking people on Skype in 2015 deletes your conversation history. I know there’s a way to mine it out of your computer somehow, but I didn’t know this back then, and I no longer own that computer.
- 10% texting (This happened in 2015. It is 2018. I’ve gone through 2 new phones, one of which was stolen fml)
- 10% other - google hangouts, Facebook, tumblr, etc.

*”This happens to men/boys too.”*

Yeah, and water is wet. Me talking about my experiences doesn’t negate others. *The only story I can tell is my own.* Why would I talk about someone else, or I guess pretend to be a boy and tell this story, if that’s what you want? I don’t know that experience or how it feels. I only know mine, and that’s why I shared it. The links I’ve provided are inclusive of all people and children, and some show breakdowns by gender. *If you’re concerned about other people and their stories, PLEASE go find them and support them.* Don’t sit in my comments section telling me to do that. They obviously need YOUR help if you want to give that. *Claiming I’m “ignoring” others by just telling my story is ignorant and a waste of the kind heart you claim to have.*

*“Did he do anything worse?”*

Unfortunately yes. Statutory r***. And I went to the police about it. We tried getting security camera footage but the place where it happened didn’t have cameras installed until a year after the incident took place. All we could try to pin him on was coercion to entice, but again, we couldn’t get him to confess. So, he got away with it.

*”you’re lying / you’re doing this for attention / this is fake / that’s photoshopped / if this really happened you’d / etc”*

Did you know 2% of American adults think the Earth is flat? With a population of 326,766,748, that’s 6.5 million dumbasses walking amongst us. With numbers like that, who am I to expect anyone watching this video to believe anything concrete?

After getting out of this relationship, I was diagnosed with major depression, anxiety, I’ve struggled with self harm since being with him and I am prone to relapsing, and I have had symptoms of PTSD (recurring vivid nightmares, flashbacks, irrational fears). Making this video put me in an awful place mentally for a month or so, which I anticipated and dealt with along the way. I do not have the emotional energy or even a care in the world to “debate” you in the comment section. But go off, more comments actually benefits my channel. (Thanks for your support! 😊😊😊😊)

Thank you guys so much and let me know if you’d like to see part two or something a little more light hearted.
Emily Hulsey
I’m so glad you made this video. Met my abusive ex boyfriend at 15 (he was 18 so I guess it wasn’t pedophilia but). Stayed with him for a year and a half. I was so scared of him. Right off of the bat it was sketch, so I tried to break up with him and was told that if I went through with it that he’d hurt himself. I decided that I didn’t care, as awful as it sounds, and I ended things, and he drove over an hour to my house at 3 in the morning. I was gaslighted into staying with him and I spent the next year and a half living my worst possible life. If I didn’t give him my passwords, I was cheating. If I was out with my family or friends, I was cheating. Anything other than staying at home with him, and I was cheating. He controlled my entire life. Anything that made me happy he tried to take credit for, like “oh you only have this because of me” I’m glad it only lasted until the beginning of my senior year because I don’t know what I would have done if he had started wanting control of my career and the rest of my life. On top of that, he was a gypsy, and wasn’t even supposed to be talking to someone who wasn’t, so our entire relationship was a secret to his entire family, and he had to sneak out super late to come see me over an hour away. I never met his parents or any of his family. All of the time he spent accusing me of cheating, HE actually cheated on me while he was in Vegas for his brothers birthday and he said he was “traumatized” by the Vegas shootings and that was his excuse.
Miss Shaneice
First, your animation skill is out of this world!! OMG!!! I was so captivated watching this. Also, that advocate guy sounds like all these haters that say the things advocate says, and I smiled because I knew that's why you put him in there. Lastly, you're a great storyteller, and I think you should keep doing this. Sorry to know you went through this bullcrap.
YokaiToyBox
Watching this video gave me violent flash backs of several different relationships I had throughout college. I had friends who I had to stay up with for hours, sacrificing my school and social life just to convince them to keep living, one was a girl I loved with all my heart, and she knew that, another was a person I was dating who convinced me to come back long after I had moved on by threatening their life. The worst for me was they never wanted to hear about my problems, even though I had plenty, their lives were always worse than mine and how dare I complain. The manipulative language sends chills down my spine, one guy I dated played with me like a puppet for two years! He would constantly gaslight me and call me names, tell me he would love to date me but I wasn't good enough for him. Even at the very end he refused to apologize. I went through all these things and it messed me up as an adult, I cannot IMAGINE what all this coming out of one person would do to me as a child. That sicko should be shot in the face, I bet to this day he's not even sorry.
Sopiiieee
The dislikes are apl of harris's fake accounts
gacha Paws
This happend to me I STILL REMEMBER IM CRYING AND I FEAL DEAD
IM SOOO SAD DONT LET ENEUTHING HAPPEN I DONT EVEN TRUST MY FAMILY
GengarGaming
You’re so strong
lll l
Daaaaaaaamn I'm shook
alicia sedano
I'M SOOOOOOOO SORRRRRRYYYY
Scholarly J
This could’ve been easily avoided.
Luna Gaming
i'm younger than you but thank you for bringing this up
Son of a Preacher Man
Omg he even wasnt there, what is your diagnose, we heard a lot about his? Did you have attention from your parents?
Tina Alaryani
This was posted on my birthday:)
Tem dahTemmah
honestly, you are so brave and powerful for making this and part 2 of this story. It shocks me to the core when I read and hear about what people do to other people. I like to write music, and one of the lyrics I wrote was (although it's not completely related):
A monster trying to escape. Be it for murder or for rape. This world is broken. Everyone's unspoken. No one wants to die. No one wants to fly.

I can't believe another human could feel it ok to essentially kill someone like that, for their own personal gain. I wish you didn't have to go through this and hope you find peace, someday. I can't begin to understand how bad that would hurt, but know all of your subscribers, including me, now, are behind you :)

So don't give up, ever :)
DoramaRx
Kovu is a good lookin lion to be fair, but Kimba is a better looking lion. (Not a fury btw)
Crysis Fantal
Honestly, at 9:01 this might get hate but you really could have just said no. I've been through not one, but three guys like Haris. I was a young kid at 12 and I knew how to say no. Maybe because I was heartless, I didn't care if anybody threatened to kill themselves just because I say no. For some, like you, maybe it's not that easy to say no. But what I want to point out is that you can't just say "you don't know how it's like" to people who make it sound so simple to say no, because I'm one of those who knows what it's like, to have someone's life in your hands, and I know how easy it is to let it go like "Hah no way you killing yourself for a 12 freaking year old". But yeah, the video purpose is great, great for awareness, great for educational purpose even in schools.
Mozzy's Studio
Thanks for making this, and especially adding in all the definitions of the different tactics of abuse haris used. I'm certain this will really help out other victims now and in the future. I know this was really difficult to make, so thank all the more!
fatima Aguilar Arcos
I feel bad bad for you
Kat H
Im not at all playing devils advocate here, but isnt there another word instead of pedophile? Pedophilia is attraction to prepubescent children. Absolutely no development whatsoever. Don't take this as me downplaying anything you've gone through or making excuses, he is an abuser 100%.
MerciRose
He played the role of a predator. He acted like her friend, then acted like a child, then acted like a parent to mentally cover corners. Children are vulnerable, not every child is taught the dangers of the internet, or understand (If that was the case, half of these situations wouldn't even exist...)
Heck, even ADULTS get caught up in these traps!!
I know she doesn't want sympathy, but I can't help but feel bad she has to defend herself against judgement over something that completely traumatized her. Why did he pick someone who couldn't defend themselves? Why didn't he just pick someone who wanted to consent to his wishes? Why did he isolate her and scare her if he didn't want to keep her in a mental hostage???
I really hope people aren't giving her grief over any of this, she's being brave enough to share her story. This is terrifying, EVEN hearing it as an adult.
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